What is it that I could have possibly done to deserve what I'm going through now? No one likes my driving and they remind me almost constantly. No one believes I can cook besides microwaving and they flaunt it in my face. They flaunt it by making something completely delicious that I'm smitten with how good it is and then I try to cook and I almost burn the kitchen down. I had total confidence in both my driving and my cooking. Now I feel like I need a superior to tell me what to do. On top of being inept at basic chores, everything somehow ends up my fault. So what if I knew the answer was Waiting to Exhale. It was funny at first when they yelled, "Shut up, Jimmy!" Really, that's the only answer I got correct in this Buzz Words game. It was fun, but there are times I wish I wasn't the one being ratted on constantly. I don't know what I've done. Am I too nice? Apparently I can't be me around anyone besides myself and it hurts. It hurts to know that people look down on me. I'm not smart, I know that. I may not be up to date on politics or know who's who in our government, but I can fucking spell and I know that being racist is so fucking stupid.

Why why why do I have friends who don't like black people, gays, or women? Why? What the fuck is wrong with seeing that they're - I hate it. I fucking hate it. At first I didn't care because nothing offends me. I don't care if people call me faggot or ass pirate. It's just the fucking bigots being ignorant. And how the fuck is me taking a shower twice a day mean anything?! The reason our water bill was so fucking high was because the toilet was leaking! It wasn't because I wanted to be clean. I have a dry scalp and if I don't take a shower or wash it, it gets itchy and I get dandruff and then I get paranoid that people will think I'm dirty because I have fucking dandruff. And why the fuck do I have to have candy thrown at me. I'm not some passive faggot who'll stand for that kind of thing! I'm paying the other half of the fucking rent and bills and I get a fucking Milky Way thrown at me because "I just wanted to throw something at you." Issues, man, issues. Why is that fucking punching bag there!? It's not for decoration! It's ugly as fuck and doesn't match anything in this fucking bland, broken, ghetto ass apartment complex!

I don't know even know where my cigarettes are! Everyone just needs to leave me the fuck alone!