You Are My Only One

Yup, I'm old school with Yellowcard.

There's something that happens during my Greek class that I can't explain. There are usually two scenarios. The first one is when I'm all hyper and speak out of line. I can tell the teacher/professor is annoyed but they handle it well. At the end of the day, I feel like a jackass about what happened. I've gotten good at toning myself down. The second scenario is my brain not working, I'm staring at the text, and my friends are being me when I'm hyper - cracking jokes and making side comments. Lately, I've been feeling lethargic, I suppose, after my class. There's an individual or two that I can't stand being around, but I'm getting better at ignoring them rather than pretending horrible accidents befalling them. I'm a bitch. Despite taking my medication, I'm going through a slump.

I found out the other day that my GPA is too low to even consider doing the M.A. teaching program at VA Tech. I asked about doing the teaching licensure/certification without the focus on M.A., but I didn't get a clear answer. I went back on my decision yet again because I really enjoy spending time with my friends here at Tech. We hang out and drink together and just be together. We're graduating; one is going to grad school somewhere not Tech and two of them are dong the M.A. teaching program (what I wanted to do).

I weighed my options and found that VCU has a program that doesn't focus on an M.A., but I have to take the GRE (or MAT) to apply. They're going to find out how smart I'm not! The deadline for the fall registration is March 15 and there's no way I have time to prepare for the GRE by then. I've settled for studying for the GRE after I graduate and then apply for the spring term. I'll work on my M.A. when I have a job. Gah, this is so far in the future.

Slump - my friend has been trying to visit Tech for the past month, but the snow has been a major hindrance. Now, she can't afford the gas money. And for some reason I promised that we'd go to a football together, after I've graduated. I don't even like football and she's not the kind to socially drink with strangers.

I hate thinking about the future. My sister plans on moving out of her condo, but renting it out. She would prefer it that I stay there instead of a stranger, but no way in hell I can afford the rent alone and I'm not even sure I'll have a job when I graduate. She's planning on moving around the time I graduate. I like her condo and I like the area there. And it would be closer to VCU if I get accepted into the teaching program.

As each paragraph gets smaller, I see it as a sign that I'm all blogged out.

-Jimmy